I think it is easier to totally surrender to God, not in a moment of passion or energy, but when I am in depression.
I have quit.
It still is a decision I make, but it is made with a penitent heart and submission.
Anger for wrong against me does not matter because when I look at myself and place myself before a righteous God, I cannot justify myself. So I yield to His judgements – the consequences of my actions, the punishment of my sin.
I think when we lead and find ourselves in a position where we are exposed to suffering at the hand of others, we are anxious that others should not be led to suffer with us.
We are prepared to go alone, compelling no one to follow.
Yet, my Saviour Jesus Christ enlists those who will come alongside of me during my time of trial and surrender.
It might be a stranger, a foreigner, a new follower of Christ – someone who needed encouragement themselves. They see in us what we do not see – wisdom and goodness. They become our friend, a friend like Jesus who loves at all times and will stick with us in times of adversity.
Jesus, may my heart be full of purpose so that in either life or death I will always know that nothing will separate me from Your love.