Proud of your self-sufficiency?
One of the things my father did when I was born, was to declare that I would be an ambassador to nations. The one act he did to back up that statement was to purchase a set of encyclopedias from Compton in 1967 – I was 5 years old.
Almost 5 years ago, I gave that set to Goodwill.
With the rise of the internet, I had current information at my fingertips – what I did not know and could not find – I found out who did and who could.
I was self-sufficient in obtaining and understanding information.
Self-sufficiency is not bad, its being proud about it that messes you up. I keep thinking about King Nebuchadnezzar and how God turned him into a mad person because he failed to honour God as the one who blessed Him.
When I think about all my strengths – which one do I feel most safe using and what if God took that safety net from me and I fell. What if God orchestrated a series of events that would show my inability to be self-sufficient and I would be incredibly humbled. What if my wealth defined me and thieves came in and stole everything I had. What if my friends turned against me and what if I thought I had wisdom and discernment and really just ended up being confused more than anything.
Do I feel secure and proud of my self-sufficiency? If I did, I would be just fooling myself because there is no lasting security apart from God. If I ever felt secure in objects or people, I would have to ask myself what they really had to offer for possessions and people can disappear in a moment. The all-sufficient God who provides everything I need is the only constant. In fact, He is the only one who can offer the kind of security I really need.
As I contemplate my role as ambassador to the nations, my security is actually in my humility. humility gives me incredible accuracy in providing perspective of myself and the world to which I am sent.